(What is) Love?

I couple months ago I bought some new cds. This new purchase was mainly inspired by getting more into Zumba, and discovering some new artists I like. And finding a NKOTB cd. But that's a different story.

On of the cds I picked up was Jennifer Lopez's new cd (What is) Love?. Honestly I didn't think I would like it as much as I did.

A few songs into the album I found myself identifying with the music on a much deeper level than just liking the beat though. (Yeah, that surprised me a lot too.) I got to the title track, and was stunned.

Single girls listen up. Read the lyrics below and tell me you haven't wondered the same things at some point, probably in the past week:

What if I never find, and I'm left behind?
Should I keep hoping for love?
What If I'm still the same, status doesn't change?
Gotta keep hoping for love

I feel like in some ways I've made a pretty good career out of being the single girl. I've been doing it a long time, and I'm pretty good at it. But still there is something inside me that longs for more.

God created all humans with desire, and emotion. He created things that would bring us joy. But ultimately He wants to fulfill our deepest desires Himself. And that's where this all gets so incredibly hard.

The typical single girl might just head out to the clubs, find some guy that she has a moderate amount of chemistry with, and that's that. But I just can't do it.

I have the desires to be loved, cherished, taken care of, just like every girl. These desires go deep. But have this desire that goes deeper: I want to have God at the center of my being, not just some guy.

I don't think that a super close relationship with God and having a guy are mutually exclusive or anything. In fact I have seen evidence that proves they aren't. I'm just not willing to settle for someone that won't keep me moving forward in my relationship with God. I won't settle for someone who thinks he needs to be placed before my God.

I so badly want to trust God and His timing in all this. I mean, after all, He has proved Himself faithful to me time and time again. But for some reason I struggle with this more than just about anything else. I think that I'm trusting God with it, but in reality those are probably just the days that this desire doesn't make it to the forefront of my mind for some reason.

And still I'm left wondering, what if JLo was onto something? What if I never find someone? What if my status doesn't change? But the question for me then changes from, "Will I keep hoping for love?" to, "Will I trust that God's taking care of me regardless?"